7 Years Letter

Dear friend,

How are you doing? Where are you? I hope you still remember me. I none but just someone who ever met you a couple years ago. Still.... I hope you never forget me... at least as your friend and here I am rewriting a time when we're together as a friend.

Dear friend, do you remember when we first met? Well, I remember it clearly. When I saw you for the first time. Actually, I was laughing (sorry for that!). You're such a strange girl. With two pigtail on your head! This is 70s or what? That the first time I saw a girl came to school with two pigtail on your head. Then you came inside my class and so you're my new classmate.

I just came in to the class, you're there with guys are all over you except for me. They all tried to introduced them self to you, but not with me. I just don't really care and just sit like nothing ever happen. I don't even know your name that time, but then you came and asked me to push my desk a bit forward so mine can be a level as your desk. That the time when I knew your name. Unlike the other, i never properly introduce my self to you.

Well you know that I not a quite social person. Its hard for me to get along with another person, especially girls and unknown person. You are different. When most the girl call me refrigerator or ice because its too cold to get near me. I just ... i don't know. It seems so easy for you to get along with me. You made it easier for me to get along with you too. You've made me totally different person. You gave bunch of memories to remembered.

Time when you around me, it such a beautiful time. No one ever knew that I could get along well with a girl. So its not a surprise when people come up with idea that we're couple. It became an issue and a whole school knew it. Not before you do something silly to me. Do you remember it? It was a creepy day for me. On the break time, I was sit on my chair and copying homework from my friend when suddenly you came. You on your knee beside me and say "please... please..". I never knew what thats all about. The last time I remember people all around the class and yelling at us. That made us famous around the school as a couple. I don't know with you but it made me shock... very shock.

Thats what you're to me, you always surprised me with almost anything you did to me. You didn't stop with just that. I remember... on January, you came early that day. It's near 11th January, you asked me to accompany you that morning. You said to me "Happy Birthday!". Yes that's my birthday, then you asked me again "Is it me? The one who say 'happy birthday' to you!". I just said no, then you looked a little bit down. "But... at least I'm the first one within your friends right?". Oh...Okay! Then I just said yes. Haha... so that's why you came early huh? It's funny for me, outside you're came early that morning just to make sure you the first one to say something to me, you're the first one to do something like that to me. I was so happy because of that and I know that your birthday is also in January.

Yep... if I should remember all the time we used to be together, you made me experienced a totally different situation that I've never done it before. You're the first one who show me that you care to me, you even say it to me. You're the closest one for me ever, even you're new for me. In total, you made me a different person...

Another day...that time... you made me totally silence. I don't know if you still remember this. you came to my home and there's just two of us. You sit and talk about your past, and I just sit and listen but sometimes just walking around because I was so nervous. You talk a lot, about your self, your family, and how can we become a friend. Then "I think... I have a little feeling of love to you..." that what you said, you suddenly stop. You closed your mouth with your hand... it's like that it just came out without even you realized it. But I clearly heard it... I can't no longer talk, just sit and silence. I don't know, i just stupid or what. How come I just sit and didn't say a even a single word to you about that? Even I knew love you. That just it, when time pass me by, I just knew that I can't never say that I'm in love with you.

Sorry, my dear friend. I could never say it to you. I just can do this. Just write down my feeling to you here in this letter. But my dear, this is not a love letter. Yes.... I need to make you know how much you mean to me. That words that you send to me, not just make me silence, but the time almost stop for me. I kept looking to the time when we're together. It's hard for me to look ahead and run with the time. I kept looking for you... I kept you inside my heart....

You know what? After the last day I saw you before my eyes, I've been a jerk for almost the girls I know. I kept them cry or angry to me. Some of them are my best friend now. But I keep doing such a bad think to them. I'm a weird person.... haha.... I can't claim this as your fault. This is clearly my fault for searching an image of you inside them. No girl ever so close like you did before. So, that's why I always miss the time when we were together.

Yep, because you such a strong memory for me. I keep remember you until now, but this makes the time almost stop ticking for me. 7 years ago you said it to me, for the whole 7 year I keep looking for you and waiting, and now 7 years later, I wrote down this letter to you so you can read it. not that I can just forget you, not that I surrender to the time, and not that I stop from keep trying. I need to go on with my life! So... I wrote this letter for you so I can remember you for the last time. Yes my dear... if you read this letter, it means ... I'll have to forget you forever even I know you'll still in my heart!



best regard


me from 2001